So, I realize how fortunate we are being able to have a new house built. A home that we create and design together. A home that we are proud of. It is a great opportunity and I am so excited about it.
But I am allowed to be annoyed during the process. I am only human. Going from a modest 4 bedroom home with a backyard to a two bedroom small apartment with porch has been an adjustment.
For some of us.
Chris gets up at 5 am to use the gym here so that he can get to Starbucks by 7 to work remotely. They recognize my daughter at this point. I should note that his normal time before we moved was 5:30, so the adjustment has been awful for him.
I have used the gym once.
My main issue with living in the apartment is that I get absolutely no privacy. NONE. I can’t hide anywhere. If she is awake for the day and I want to sleep in because daddy is home, forget about it. She could give two fucks about my need to get extra sleep or need to pee alone for that matter.
The month of September also brought a new side of Charlotte. A dark side. One that hits people and things, screams at the top of her lungs, flings herself around, cries, throws things and repeats “no” as if she is stuck on repeat. I heard this wasn’t supposed to happen until March of next year. I told her to get it together. So she hit me. We are in negotiations.
She has endured multiple injuries in the short time we have lived here. Mostly because we have tried to cram most of our furniture in this apartment. Also, see above mentioned behavior. Her poor little face is bruised and I had to explain the Doc Mcstuffins band-aide on her forehead to the pediatrician at her 18-month check-up today. Awesome parent moment.
I have mostly lost my desire to cook. The kitchen is disorganized and tiny. I am too lazy to put any real effort into managing the kitchen and organizing it. I use the short stay as my crutch. So meals are always simple, sometimes pre-made (yes, judge me) or take-out. I just can’t find motivation to cook. Which makes me a little sad, because cooking is always a little therapeutic for me.
Another fun fact I have recently learned is that by being the primary grocery shopper I get to carry all the groceries AND the toddler/crap upstairs every week. But hey, that’s a work-out so whatever.
Walking the dog with a toddler in the rain can be added to the list of shit I am getting used to.
Monday through Wednesday takes a toll on me. Watching other people’s kids during those days in addition to my own monster, I mean strong-willed toddler, has an a pretty big effect on me. Plus she is teething currently and since I can’t hide from her in this apartment she basically lives on me. So by friday I am a walking zombie. She can also see the park from our apartment door so when we go on walks with the dog if she is feeling so inclined, she just starts walking that way. She also likes holding the dog leash and it is too cute to take away from her, so one friday I found myself at the park, in my pajamas at somewhere around 9:30 in the morning. I am pretty sure I didn’t even finish one of my morning cups of coffee. It’s easier to go with it I have found. Sort of like ‘play dead’ so she takes it easy on me. So we I went to the park, in my pajamas and played with her.
I know one thing my husband would say he is not enjoying about apartment life is the money I spend doing stuff that will keep me out of the house. I have to leave sometimes, for hours, to reset. So what kinds of things can I do: pedicures, manicures, massages, shopping, coffee. The way I see it, I am stuck in this apartment for 3 days with watching other people’s babies and parenting mine. I earn some money and my sanity is vital to this family. I enjoy those things and they help me stay afloat.
During the first month of this little adventure, we decided to rid ourselves of cable. We have broadened our knowledge to other options and now have a Roku. Love it. So naturally I started binge watching shows like Weeds, Orange is the New Black and the season I missed of American Horror Story. Which has definitely worked against me as far as blog productivity. I am actually trying to multi-task right now and watch Weeds. I just started it over.
I wonder what the next five months will have in store for us. I hope the fact that every month from now until we are scheduled to move in has a holiday to celebrate will help.
I hope I get to use the gym more.